Updates:

16th December 2009

At last. It's been far too long but I've finally been able to see the wonderful Tracey again and have her weave her magic on me. Please let me know what you think and give my new photos a rating. I've never been close to being a Top Babe and although I hate myself for saying it, it would be rather nice.

16th March 2009

My latest photoshoot with the lovely Tracey at Trans Femme. Apart from being a magician with the make up and camera, she is also really warm, friendly and enthusiastic. I can't recommend her enough. Thank you Tracey. See the results below and let me know what you think.


23rd September 2008

Had some new photos done, this time at Trans Femme in Swindon (I'm becoming a right little dressing service tart). Tracey and Nikki were fabulous, really warm and friendly and I was really happy with the photos. I cannot recommend them highly enough, especially with regards value for money. Thank you Tracey and Nikki. The general consensus is that blonde suits me best, so that's what I'm going to be from now on. Many thanks to everyone who gave me their opinion and also thank you to all those who have given me the most wonderful compliments. It really means so much to me.



8th July 2008

Right, here we go then.

Firstly, thank you to everyone who has mailed me or commented in my guestbook and said nice things about me. You’ve no idea how much you have helped my self esteem.

A couple of ground rules. I am not interested hearing from anyone who has pictures of their bits on their page. I’m sorry, but they’re not the most aesthetically pleasing part of the human anatomy. Can’t get my head around people trying to portray a feminine image whilst dangling their meat and two veg. If that’s your thing then that’s fine, but I just don’t want to see it.

Unlike some, I don’t mind hearing from admirers, I have had some lovely compliments. But please bear in mind that I am in no way interested in men, so bathing in the glory of a nice comment is as far as it goes.

I’m not going to bore you with my life story, but if you’ve read this far, I assume you want to know a bit about me.

I am a 42 year old, relatively inexperienced t-girl. I am deeply in the closet and I’m afraid that is where Natalie must stay for the time being.

I have thought about this long and hard. I am very happily married and I simply cannot bear the thought of losing her. Even if there is only a 10% chance of her taking the news badly then, as far as I’m concerned, that’s a chance I’m not willing to take. I have read enough profiles to know that, incredibly, a bloke in a dress can break up a relationship. I will not risk our future happiness just so I can indulge in my little hobby more often.

I have dressed just six times in the past four years. Each time with the aid of a dressing service. Each time I think the results have improved and Natalie now has her own ‘style’. It’s been described as ‘yummy mummy’ and ‘girl next door’, I like both those descriptions very much. Having said that, I would love to experiment further. There are so many looks I haven’t tried yet. I can’t even decide whether I look better blonde or redhead let alone what clothes to try. Any suggestions on a style or look that may suit me will be gratefully received.

I’m impressed when reading other profiles at how many girls really embrace the whole male to female thing so well. They become their alter ego. I’ve really tried, but when I’m Natalie, I’m still me. I still hate shopping. I have no interest in soft furnishings, I despise celebrity culture, I‘m not going to watch a chick flick any time soon. I still love football and cars. This confuses me, as I feel it would be easier if I could split a girly Natalie personality from my male persona. Maybe Natalie’s personality will develop the more I dress. Maybe she’s just a tomboy.

Having said that, I love women, I love their look, their softness, their femininity. Occasionally, it's not enough to just admire. I want to experience that femininity myself.

For me, it’s all about the look. If I can project a decent (maybe even convincing) feminine image through photographs, then that’s good enough for me, as the chances of going any further are limited. I’m not going to beat myself up about it.

Sorry about getting so deep. I’m just trying to relay my thoughts and feelings to the world for the first time. I would be so grateful for any comments or opinions on any of the above. Also, please feel free to rate my photo’s. Also, my Hot or Not page is http://www.hotornot.com/r/?eid=A8A8BYR&key=YPF if you want to give my rating a boost.

Likes:
Family
Football
Nostalgia
Bovril on toast
Curry
Cars
Monty Python
Sarcasm
The sound of a baby laughing
Frosty, sunny early mornings when no-one’s about
Strawberries
Kids (I'm still one myself)
Anna Friel. The perfect female, utterly gorgeous.


Dislikes:
Bigotry
Arrogance
Marmite
Small yappy dogs dressed in tartan jackets
The owners of small yappy dogs dressed in tartan jackets
Soap operas
Golf bores (I’m not bloody interested)
People who use the phrase “22 men kicking a ball around” (I realise I could be alienating a lot of people here)
Intolerance
People who do all their food shopping in the petrol station
Garlic
Shopping (I know this is close to blasphemy on this site. I’ve come to the conclusion I just hate crowds)
Beaches (see above)
People who donate to animal charities (Children first. Get your priorities right)
Sweets that are supposed to taste of strawberries, they just don’t
Cockroaches
Jingoism
Musicals
Sultanas in curries (it's just wrong)
Lily bloody Allen, her hideous music and her ridiculous public schoolgirl mockney accent



3rd June 2008

Some new photos at long last courtesy of the wonderful Jodie Lynn at The Boudoir. It is amazing what she can do and I had a great time. As a bonus, she is genuinely warm and friendly and I would not hesitate in recommending The Boudoir to anyone.
Because of this sudden influx of new Natalie photos, I have started my own Flickr page, the link is at the top of the page. Another small step for Natalie.
Please feel free to sign the guestbook, rate my photo's or mail me. My self confidence is growing by the day, but more compliments are welcome, even if I have to fish for them.
In the not too distant future, I will elaborate on my personal circumstances/likes/dislikes etc.




Hi,
I have been Natalie on and off for about 25 years.
I am still strictly in the closet and would like to remain so but who knows what might happen in the future.
I really would like to know what people think as I have never ventured out but with a bit more confidence I would like to.
I am a redhead or blonde (I can't decide which I prefer. Opinions gratefully received) with hazel eyes. I am 5 foot 7 inches tall and a slim build.
I go for the shy and demure look as I think that suits my personality but that might change the more confident I become.